2 degrees outside. This temperature does not inspire. I was so tempted to slide back under the covers – thick down covers – might I add!!
However, I had committed to the annual Run Across the Lake event of our running group. And commitment, I’ve come to realize, has had me do some fairly off-beat things. Crossing a large body of frozen water on a 2 degree morning is one of those things.
Commitment to living a thriving, happy life, vastly different than the one I had originally dreamed of, is also one of those things.
Running and life-beyond-infertility, go hand-in-hand for me and often inform each other.
For instance, on this very fine Sunday morning, there is the reality of circumstance – the outside temperature – and then there are the choices I make in the face of that reality. It would have been pretty easy to put my head back under the covers – choosing not to face the morning with a run. Instead, I make the choice to layer up and get out there. (Besides, while I’m monitoring the toaster, My Guy is busy twisting screws into the bottom of his running shoes….how can I wimp out in the face of that bravery!)
And, as I’ve come to learn, life is generally about perspective. Will I take the “life is cold, hard, and not worth getting out of bed” perspective or will I chose the “life is an adventure – and isn’t running across the lake fun!” perspective.
I admit, the first few steps on the lake filled me with trepidation. I’m not overly fond of ice and speed as a combination, hence my terror of downhill skiing. Luckily, this surface is flat and the speed is all mine. Eventually, I find my stride and gain confidence in my coordination and the grip of my Yaktrax. And so, running and life-beyond-infertility, is also about trust. Trusting myself as I put one foot in front of the other across a glassy surface. Trusting I can rebuild my life in a way to maximize happiness and contentment. Trusting myself to find my tribe.
And, it is about trusting the fact I will be warm enough, which I invariably do not, and so consequently, I tend to overdress for my winter sports. And, then I’m amazed by how warm I can get on cold, snowy, winter days – to the point of peeling off layers until I am only outfitted with tights, a technical turtleneck, and a windbreaker. Truly.
So, for me, running and life-beyond-infertility is also a lesson about energy; how positive energy fuels a body, warming it up, even in spite of surrounding conditions. It is a reminder of how sunshine on a frozen lake enhances the sparkly, vibrant atmosphere, confirming, for everyone, this run was a fantastic idea!
Camaraderie, laughter, and five miles across frozen water…made possible by commitment. Here’s to the Good Life!